I wish dying wouldn’t be so painful.

How do someone know when you have absolutely nothing to live for? I know I no longer have nothing to live for. What now? Get a job grow old and die? Not for me. I’ve been having this dream lately. Maybe that’s what its been trying to tell me. In the dream I pick up a Spiderman toy and a Elmo stuffed animal. Then I go sit on a couch with a boy who seems to be at his early teen years and a girl who seems to be at the same age as the boy. The boy is holding a controller and the girl is holding a stuffed bear. I’ve had this dream so much I know exactly how they look like and what they’re wearing. We all sit on the couch and then a voice tells us are we ready? Then out of no where we all disappear. Sounds like a normal dream correct? I’ve been having this dream for a week straight. I find myself being completely scarred of everything. My only safe place is when I’m asleep. Maybe that’s why I sleep a lot. I’m just going on and on. I want to get better if I can. Until then I’m going to be in bed. I don’t believe in God but I just want something to pray to. In my culture we pray to the sky. Then I might as well pray to the sky hoping I get better or that it will get rid of this dream for me. If Freddy Krueger was real he will be haunting me right now. Please please let me stop having this dream. Please. I want to stop having this dream. It’s taking control of my life. Please let it stop. I can’t take it anymore….

Already miss one fantastic superhero movie. I’m not missing this one!!

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I just want to grab my brain and smash it because its hurting me and I’m in unbelievable pain and its honestly making me believe dying would be better than this.

Ashley thought this was so cute because everytime I played it she was “awwwwhhh” and it never gets old. She’s so cute!!

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My beautiful girlfriend :)

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Lay your hands or even think about hurting this girl I swear I will hurt you a million times worse than you can ever imagine.